first entry~

hey
this would be my first out spoken post. i don't know if anyone o sumone will read this. i don't knw why really i felt the need to spill o taLk as such but i juz taught i dont have reasons against it either. today i am juz an 18 year old girl tryin to undersnd and comin to term wit wat i believ to understnd but seems tht each day im proven a new think right n and old thing wrong and the beliefs i have blindy are the best ones since they the ones i need no proof of. i dont knw if i make sence of anything i say but i juz want to say and will say heehehe.i wont say im an ordinary girl i dont believ and will b damnd b4 i do believ in tht. today i felt the need to write n say bcus as i taught i taught how many of u think lik i do o are havin this taught i am. which of my ideas my words will ever belong to me and which of them had already been taught cuz i do knw they have been said since the words i use are hand me downs but how many of them wen i use are formed into a scentence tht ive first made.hehehe well it doesnt matter anymore. since ive said it taught it n left it to be taught by sumone else to claim n take pride in.hmmm okey let me step bak a bit and say a bit abt me. im 18 years and i was born in sri lanka. i was raised there n lived there all my life. my parnts are divorce and ive no half sisters o brothers so far o tht i knw of lol but i have one step sister whom i met as a child age 7 o 5 no clue but wen i was tiny so i dont knw too much abt her cept her name was aisha.i dont really wanna talk abt my farther presnt wife for as far as i can tel she's not in my life n not welcome in it either. then i have one older brother who's 23 this year and evn if ppl may cal us a broke family we still r a family how evr disfuntional o watevr. one thing u cn b sure of is tht i love my family they the ones tht taught me to love(aisha isnt part of it but she's my farter bak ground but they not in the pic).
anyway i'll write more o maybe record sumthing cuz i alwys tend to talk better than i write :)
later then
xxxo xox :)